Boys like crazy girls.

I just figured it out. Boys simply like girls who are out of the world, strange, crazy, utter madness, and they term it 'unique'.

Well, I guess it's only human to like things that are different from all other normalities of life. It makes us feel like we are significant individuals, each being very different from every other 'sigificant individuals'. And so, it feels almost like a race. We try to out shine, or 'out dirt', other ppl around us. Dressing bizarrely to gain attention to prove to ourselves that there's something worth a second look about us as an 'unique' individual. But really. How unique is a person with a big mohawk, pink hair, big shirt and nipple piercings when every body else can be just the same? uniqueness, to me, ain't just about looking different. It ain't about what shirt you wear, what restaurant you visit, what hairstyle you have. To me, it's more about how you carry yourself with that hair, that gown, that whatever. But when that's the case, it's simply the way one carries him or herself isn't it? the rest are just accessories, accessories of life.

I've seen posers(losers), who try to be who they are not. Putting on big shirts highlighting how cool they are, when they simply can't pull it off! It's like, I'd think they were more cool if they just wore something normal/do things which belong to what they'd do, rather then to have this totally uncool image of trying too hard, and doing certain things because they feel obliged to, because they want to be different, because they want to impress other ppl. It's just not right! Instead of climbing up the ladder they are trying so hard to climb, I think they are more like taking a slide.

I'm not saying that the 'cool' ppl are the only ones that would ever be cool. I'm not saying that it's in born, if you are not cool, that's it. I'm saying, if you want to be cool/hip/truely unique, you should start from within, and not from the surface. Start by changing your mindset, not your closet. Start off by changing how YOU view things, how YOU react to things and not with the purpose of trying to impress other people with what you want to do. Sure, every one wants to impress, but when you are trying too hard/you are not sincere, ppl CAN feel it. You'll be more naked then a turkey on a Christmas table.

but of coz, there will always be some people who are just annoying being themselves. that, I'd suggest, get yourself a consultant. There probably is somehting very wrong with your mindset about the society, and your socialising skills need some urgent attention. Try asking some close friends of yours what do they think is wrong with you(I repeat, CLOSE FRIENDS). If they refuse to tell you, they are probably not your closest friends, look for others. If you have no friends at all, probably you should do some self evaluation, I believe it wouldn't be too hard to find some flaws in which you can work on.

Going back to the theory I have about guys liking girls(or may be guys?) who are mad. I think the theory stands where uniqueness is concerned. It makes a mark, leaves a lasting memory, and believe it or not, i think mad people are the most sincere of all people. they simply don't act! mebbe that's why ppl think they are mad?

it's hard to strike a balance. I know. I try to be as sincere as i can towards everyone whom paths i've crossed. I love deeply and whole heartedly when I'm with whoever I'm with. And I cherish every one of my friends, whether we met only once, or we've known each other for a life time(which currently is only 19 years, but it'll get slightly longer)(I hope).

And if I've ever loved any one too deeply, or more then I should have, I'm sorry. Coz love is all I have to give. And I hope they can feel it as sincerely as i gave it to them.