So many things!!!

Ever since I started work, every day has been a totally new and absolutely exciting experience... not including the times where I'm just boringly stand by the beer counter with no one passing by at all though.

Otherwise, people simply makes me happy. It's fun to look and get to interact with them generally. Some are real pricks and one managed to make me cry today.. It's hard being nice sometimes.. I'll tell you more later.

Anyway, everyday has been so happening. I got praised on my sales by the General Sales Manager of APB while I was at bedok NTUC. And in his exact words.

"You are the best I've seen so far"

Ofcoz that may mean everyone else is just below average, but I'd like to think I really did well.

And I managed to catch a thief(not a particularly clever one). He tried to steal 2 cartons of Guinness from my counter and took off after exiting from the exit from right beside my counter... 1stly, to exit from right under my nose and expect me to not see?! I wasn't praised for being alert for nothing okie! 2ndly, 2 CARTONS OF GUINESS?!!! That is 48 cans of stout,for the benefit of those who don't know what's a carton, being carried by one person who is trying to escape unnoticed.... how smart is that? How the Hell did he think he would be able to run carrying 2 cartons of beer? duno what was going through his mind. anyway, he is probably thinking of the same thing now with the police by his side? haha.. handed him over to the police. Some police came over and took my statement as well!! how exciting was that! hehe.. now the ppl at Clementi NTUC calls me hero. :P

And i also got to know several ppl who were very nice. Kelvin from Jurong NTUC was soooo nice! he even came down to clementi to have dinner with me coz it was too boring at jurong being the only APB promoter there! :>
I also got to know a 'fortune teller' who sold carlsberg. He said that my luck for 2005 is good. I'd certainly hope so! need money.. need money...

And as for today, got one stinky no good auntie came and look at Tiger. So I promoted the beer to her lah! then she complain say yesterday she came to buy and bought 2 10s but there wasn't anyone there to tell her about the free gifts and so she didn't get any. You see, the rule is that, if there isn't a promoter at the point of buying, no free gifts will be promised. Well, being me(I don't really care about the rule, not like it's my own business) so long that you can produce prove of purchase I'd gladly give you the gifts as well! So I asked her if she's got the receipt, if she does I can still give her the gift. And when I gave her the egg, she didn't look happy coz she liked the cards more. So I let her choose if she wants 2 packs of cards or a golden egg. Her son liked the egg more. So I made an offer, I offered to give her a pack of cards for free if she buys a pack of 6s(normally cards are only given if a 10s/2x6s is bought) and she agreed. then after that, when she went to pay, she made a big fuss with the cashier and made it look as if I did not give her anything at all!!! And then the cashier came over to ask me to give her another golden egg!!! How the hell am I suppose to give her a golden egg with a bloody six pack?!!?!?! and she was the one who wanted the cards to start with!!! bloody f**k*r. When I told them *nicely* that it is not possible, she asked me to give her a deck of cards. But that was exactly what we agreed on!!!! whatever, she paid and came to me to get the cards/ Scenario: my other customer just recieved his free gifts from me.. And you know what that bitch did?!

'This miss very 'niao'(aka stingy) one. Don't buy from her. The other boy promoter is better. She very 'niao'. '

What the f-ing f-er does she think she is! and to think I was actually trying to be nice and gave her an offer so that she can get what she wanted without having to pay as much as any other person. It's like I've been known for being nice, and tries to give my customers what they want most of the time with as low a price to pay as possible. And this bitch comes along and not only tell me but also tell my other customer that I AM 'NIAO'?! who the f is 'niao' now??!! huh?!?! the one who is accusing me for being niao because she didn't get a golden egg by buying only 6 cans of beer or the one who offered to give the free gift since the customer seemed to like it so much?!

Angry...

anyway, good thing there are nice ppl/stuff in the NTUC. cheered me up... was quite a scene when I teared.. not my fault... I was feeling very much maligned. Still am actually.. anyway.. should stop thinking about bitches. angrifying.

Well, the last event was the most recent(today) so I had the a fresh memory of it. thus was pretty detailed.. :P would have written on something more merry if i could, but still feeling mentally unbalanced now.. better go sleep.. good night~

I've got a personality disorder!!!!

Disorder Rating

Paranoid: Low

Schizoid: Low

Schizotypal: Moderate

Antisocial: Moderate

Borderline: Low

Histrionic: Moderate

Narcissistic: Low

Avoidant: Low

Dependent: Low

Obsessive-Compulsive: High

Happiness

is when one is loved? Or when one loves?

A topic to ponder.

Most of my friends would choose to be loved over loving. To them, it would feel more torturous to love someone who doesn't love them the same way than to be loved by someone they don't. It is understandable. Everyone have different needs when it comes to relationships I suppose. May be that I am masochistic,but I'd choose to be with someone whom I love than to be with one whom I don't. The reason is simple. I think it'd be torturous to not be loved the same amount back, but it'd be worst if I were to be constantly in guilt for not loving someone as much as I should. And the world would be dark and gloomy with someone whom I have limited love for, whilst every little thing that the person I love does would brighten my day and make life worth living for.

Some would try and learn to love the person back. But this is far too unknown for me. What if I find that I can't love the person back? What if after years and years of trying, I'm still not 'there'? The fact is, rejection IS the best form of attraction. The biggest fish will always be the one who snapped your line and got away. And life will be a misery being with someone whom you know will always be there, but only serve to make you feel more guilty everyday. I'd rather be the one who gives than the one who receives.

Ideally though, everyone should only be with someone whom they love and be loved by the same person. What can I say, the world is far from Ideal. And too many people had made too many wrong choices with regards to what kind of love they want and can endure. I'm not sure if what I believe in is correct, or even rational. But love is just such an irrational thing that even the most sophisicated scientific machine cannot rationalise. Where no art can justify. And no man can(and probably will ever) understand fully.

So, maybe I should just lift my hands up and surrender to love. Let me float like the leaves in the wind, and probably love will decide where I should be eventually.

But can anyone explain this strong wish from within to be with thee...

Pain... Pain...

My feet feels as if it's falling apart.... it's at times like these I'd wished I were slimmer... haiz... The promoter job is really not as easy as it seems.. coz have to stand for the whole freaking time which is equivalent to 9 hrs... Man.... I think i'll wear my mom's sandels next time.. more comfy.

For those who are interested~ I went for the photoshoot on sat~~!! hehee.. took like a tonne of photos... they say they'll burn all my pics into a cd for me to keep. :P I'll put some up if they are nice.. :P Had make up so thick, it's as though I'm going on a stage for acting. but under the flash and all.. actually it looked almost like it wasn't there.. so actually, modeling IS kindda like acting.. i kindda feel that being in Drama kindda conditioned me for these kindda things.. coz even when the make up artist had the light shining directly at my face, I didn't really feel uncomfortable. The lights felt far less intense then the blinding stage lights..

So, now it's up to luck.. if there are clients that choose me.. great! if not... then nothing I can do also... So, wish me luck!!

Starting work on Sun!

Okie, my Guinness promoter job will start on Sun at Turf City Giant. So, all who fancy buying some Guinness and helping me boost my sales record... hehe.... you know what to do lah.. :P

My working hours for Sun(for the rest of the holiday I'm not sure where I'll be yet, this is just temporary) :
12-10 pm

for other days is 5-10 I think. The agency seems to be quite badly organized though... Everything seems rather messed up.

Meanwhile, I'll be going for a photo shoot on Sat. Free lance modeling~~ hehee... hopefully i'm not too fat... Asked a friend to accompany me, no way am I going to go to some Ulu lulu studio at Loyang by myself. So, hope all is well for that one. What's good about it is that I won't have to pay for anything.. hehee... I'll ask if I can choose which photos to keep and which ones to delet when I'm there..

BTW, is Xmac Mr Seah? Sorry, but I don't think I've got your email add actually... Think I'll only be able to commit into theater after CNY now.. due to the job and all.. but still, planning for the future.. hehee... do tell me more about the evening mime course (free?) and if there are any theater works coming up a little later. Thanks!

2nd Arsenal game! At highbury~~ won 2-0 hehe..  

The O'Briens!! And a yummy Christmas turkey in the foreground... hehee.. I would love to take this opportunity to thank the O'Briens for their hospitality, and all the good food and good drinks they provided for me during my stay. Loved every meal that Mrs O'Brien cooked. yum! 

Buskers in the Underground 

This is taken from the top of St. Paul's. you can see the eye(big wheel) from the pic. and alot more if you take a stroll around. The whole city view was fantastic! but the climbing up was hell... must have been almost 700 steps altogether..I hated going up on stairs.. I like going down more.. haha.. But it was definitely worth it. And the inside of the Cathedral was like.. GOSH.. It's amazing. Huge and very very pretty. Gold lining and all... and the paintings on the ceilings were simply astonishing. Really an eye opener. 

More pictures of Beautiful Cambridge. It's really Big and very nice. It's a pity i didn't get to meet any one marks our scripts though.. hahaa... The pictures I took can not do much justice to the actualy size of the campus. And there are buildings that are on the opposite street but belongs to the school as well. and there's even a big church thingy(I'm still not very good about differentiating a church, a cathedral and a whatever.. at all) which belongs to the school with statues of Newton and many other famous ppl who graduated from there.

Cambridge! Do I look like Song Meiling or what? 

In the park behind the O'Briens' house. Very sunny day, setting off for Cambridge! 

One of my favourite pictures taken in the trip. Taken while on the way to portsmouth stadium for the game! Arsenal rox~ 

At dork yard portsmouth!! the Back ground looks almost like a painting. 

Beer Girl?

Yap, I went for a job interview yesterday. and it turned out more like an on-the-spot-training that lasted for 3hrs. faint~

And so, i'll be working for Singapore's largest beer company. And selling the world's no. 1 stout. and i'll be wearing a dress that's suppose to look class, it's kindda like a chiong sum kindda dress. but shorter and sleeveless. well, the good thing is i'll be working in supermarts. so the chances of being 'tiao xi' is low. i hope. but i think it might be rather cold in the marts. I haven't got the chance to try on the dress yet. will be doing that tmr.. if it's too much, i'll request for polo tee and jeans i guess. ;P

mean while, i'm still looking out for modeling jobs and theater productions or what so ever.. so if any of you my readers can help, or have any of such contacts, it'd be deeply appreciated. and a big thank you to you 1st!

At Changi International Airport. Going to check in soon! England here I come!! 

Rolling back to Singapore like a Ball

Literally.

SO I am back from my not-so-little trip to Europe.

That was almost 3 days ago now. And to say the truth... I do miss England. I like it there, even the most unwelcomed feature, the weather, was kindda like what I like the most.

As some of you may know now. I lived in an English friend's house during my stay. And had the chance to have lots of home cooked food, which i think is a blessing. I was told by far more than one person that English food or rather food in London is like Cr*p. Even the 'How to be a Brit' (kindda like the singapore's ' how to be a singaporean' book) book featured that as one of the most renound features of England, together with their weather, love for pets, and almost absurd politness.

The whole holiday lasted for 17 days. And we spent the 1st week doing sight seeing mostly around London before going to Hythe and then France, and then London again.. Leister square, St. Pauls, China Town, National gallary, Natural History Museum, Chinese food, Cambridge, and watched some 3 Arsenal matches in Portsmouth, Charlton and Highbury, not forgetting Montreuil and Calai in France and St. Mary's Bay on the way back. Every one of these places took a part of me with them, and gave me a piece of beautiful memory to keep.

In this holiday.. I drank more wine then I had for the past 19years of my life(man i'm getting old). Met more new people then I have done for the past 3 years. And had more meat then I thought I'd ever have.. Their family is really a no carb, minimal veg family.

But nonetheless, I enjoyed myself greatly.
I will put up some pictures and together with them more detailed stories of my trip!