Ever wondered?

How do you know when you've met The One? You'll realise that when no matter how long your 'reasons why I shouldn't' list gets, you still keep coming back for more.

I don't know how many stories my list goes.. I just hope I can control my aching heart when ever I see or hear about him.

How I wished I never loved him.
How I wished I've nv been such a fool.
Believeing in love?
Perhaps believeing too much in love.

we weren't meant to be I guess.. It takes 2 hands to clap.. and now my arms are dead tired.. But still I can't fight wanting to see him every now and then.. when things go wrong.. when I want someone to help me.. to support me.. I wanted him to be the one.. The one whom I can just lay beside and talk about everything. Where I can talk nonsense and he'll play along with me.. Where I can ask him serious questions and he can give me serious answers... Where he can do all the things that I can't. and ask me to help him in things he weren't good at...

Don't know how to continue anymore.. feeling very down suddenly.. again.. bye..

Late night Post..

it's 1.15am. Probably not that late for many of my peers. But to me.. it is late.. I shooed CL to sleep at around 12. Said that I didn't want him to sleep too little... But probably it's because of something else.. I wonder if the relationship will last. I'm not even sure if I'm really committed into it yet. But one thing I know is that i really enjoy his company. His everything makes me smile.. even when I get angry with him it's mostly just me acting like I'm angry.. Or perhaps.. just fishing around for more attention..

I'm back on french class again! But this time it's with NTU. :P Je suis une etudiante francais! Encore! hahaa j'aime le francais. c'est sexy. :P hahaa.. ask a french to read this.. and he'll probably faint. ops.

anyway, my Financial Management test is on MON!!!!! I'm going to die.. better get back to studies!~

Early Happy valentines day to all~!!! Muack~! Laba ya'll~~

I duno why I'm writing this blog also.. hahaa

Think all my readers run away liao.. hahaa.. I update my blog like.. I duno... once every 3 months? hahaa :P ops. well, been posting more stuff on friendster.. Guess, people who know both blogs (and actually bother to read both) would have noticed the difference in content between the 2. I guess the 2 blogs serve different purposes.

Anyway, I think I'm having a headache now.. Better go rest.. Ciao~

Unbelievable

Some times I guess things just happen without you knowing it.

I'm dying

Head and Heart,

Not friends I'm thus sure.

Nothing is the same,
How can there be?

I yearn for your touch.

Head and Heart,

What's setting us apart,

I need to leave
Nothing else I'm as sure as this.

I cry when I start.

Dreaming of the start.
Wishing for the end to part.

Time is something I have not to touch.
Time is something I need to let pass..

Breathing hard.
I try to leave my heart...

My mind is breaking apart. So many things, I don't know where to start... I don't know how I'll survive this.. I don't think I can.. It's as though there's a stone tied to my heart, and I cry whenever I remember how much I can't revive.

I miss him alot.. alot alot..

He asked me out yesterday. I scolded him. Guess we won't be friends anymore, it's too hard for the both of us anyway.. Perhaps totally going seperate ways would be better for the both of us. I can't help it.. I feel like crying every time I think of him. And everything makes me think of him. From songs we use to sing together to places we use to go, from cuisines that he likes to things that we do. I don't know how I'm going to feel better or how long will it take. But I really wish that I will feel better someday. I can only wish him all the best. Perhaps I'm not the right girl for him afterall.. it's better this way.