27.4.15

Spring flowers in the dark of winter

Gosh. Just look at that title. Total emo. hahahahaa..

But actually, it's kind of a happy post


On the chill of a winter's night.
Winds howling in this restless plight.

I don't remember when it started.
Where I curled up into my little corner.
Too afraid to touch, or see, or feel.
This winter is beginning to get too cold.

Then you reached out your hand
Like a torch or fire.

I might be burning myself,
but for now,
I feel like a spring flower in the dark of winter.

14.4.15

Loneliness

I guess the biggest problem I have, is my strong dislike towards being alone. But yet, I'm picky about who to spend time with. Sigh. 

It's probably not the best combination of introvertness, it expands so much of my energy to interact with others that despite the desire to connect, I feel wary about who. Having said that, I sincerely apologise to my friends whom I've probably been neglecting, some times I just feel so tired to connect to people.. I wish I could have friends who I don't need to worry too much about, friendships that lasts a lifetime and some one to care about/be cared by without too much maintenance. Perhaps what I need, is a lazy friendship. 

Honestly speaking, I think I'm a lazy friend. I'll do my best to help if my friends need me, but when they don't need me, I am quite happy to fade away.. I guess that's me. A lazy friend. 

My best friend and I meet up about once a year. That's what it's like to be my best friend, can you imagine?? I think by notm standards, I'm a pretty sucky best friend to anyone. Haha. 

Now that I think about it, Tbh, I think I have a friendship/relationship phobia. I thought these were things that were supposed to go away as people got older?? What the hell?? Oh well, sleepy time.